If I'm being honest I'd tell you that I'm really excited for May... but very nervous too. Aaron and I are doing a 30 day juice fast and I'm anxious. I love food. I know we all do, but I really, really love it. And I have the biggest sweet tooth of anyone I know. But we're both feeling icky and bloated and just not good about our bodies and we want to do something to jumpstart us back onto the right path. It's going to be really hard and I'm going to want to cheat (probably) every day. I really think I can do this though. We're each giving ourselves something awesome at the end of the month as a "prize" for getting through it. I'm already looking forward to sharing that part with you.
If I'm being honest I'd tell you I miss my big family back in Utah. I'm the oldest of six kids and we're all very close. I miss staying up late at night talking about life and giving them advice. I miss their hugs and laughs. I even miss them annoying me, although they did that a lot less when we got older.
If I'm being honest I'd tell you that the worst part of being away from my family is my sister being pregnant with my very first niece. She's due June 9th and I'm so sad that I'm missing the baby's birth. Growing up Shelly and I always talked about how one day we'd live right next door to each other and raise our babies together. We always thought that's the way it would be and even though I love the life I have now and Shelly loves hers, we miss the dream just a little bit.
If I'm being honest I'd tell you that I feel sort of stuck in a rut. I'm trying to find myself, my purpose in life, and I have no idea where to start. The e-course I'm taking right now is giving me a lot to think about and hopefully at the end of it I'll have things more in focus. I want to inspire people. That's all I know.
If I'm being honest I'd tell you that I'm sorry this is such a downer post. I don't usually write those but sometimes I need to get some things off my chest. And if you made it to the end of this post
YOU ARE AWESOME.
Well Sue,while you might not be drawing a paycheck from this blog, you most definitely already inspire people. :) Thinking of you!!
ReplyDeleteSue I love you so much and you inspire me every day. You are so wonderful and loving and don't you worry because everyone needs to have a little vent. Hugs!!!!!
ReplyDeleteYou have such a beautiful family - and I agree - it can be so hard to be away from them, especially when big life moments happen. Oh, and I like the honesty, even if you feel it's a "downer post".
ReplyDeletei made it! yay. and loved every honest one. i posted a wedding dress today too. great minds think alike. :)
ReplyDeleteThanks for sharing this. It's always hard when you think you have no direction. But just keep your chin up. Maybe consider meeting with a career advisor or life coach in your area?
ReplyDeletexoxo Samantha
Hugs!!! I totally hear you on the sister thing...my sis lives halfway across the world and they just had their first baby 6 months ago. I hate that we don't get to be mommies together.
ReplyDeleteHope May is great for you!! xo,
Kristina
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I agree with you on the "still trying to figure out what I want to do in my life." After I got married, I decided to skip grad school so we could have kids. Now, I'm trying to figure out what I want to do with my life.
ReplyDeleteI know how you feel about your family, tho mine isn't nearly as far as yours! I try to make as much time as I can to see them because we used to all live on the same street and now we're an hour away from each other. I hope your e-class ends uo helping you, too! I went thru college and still never figured out what I really wanted, just ideas lol -Jessica
ReplyDeleteAwesome post Sue! You are a big inspiration! You are helpful, kind, sweet and I'm proud to call you family! I love your randomness and sense of humor because I think it's great that we are obviously getting that from the same group of relatives. Good for you and Aaron for taking measures to help your health the hubby is doing that to and I need to start as well. It's hard when you have a sweet tooth but also imperative and I know this so so well. Man it sucks to miss family but for some reason I think god put us in the situations to grow and show us our strength. I look forward to being closer to my fam one day but for now I'll just enjoy the ride! Lots of hugs!!! Thanks for being so awesome!!!
ReplyDeleteHugs!!
ReplyDeleteNot a downer post at all. Especially not to me because its a Military Life we live and we often miss out on so much because of it. But on the other hand you wouldn't trade the life style for anything because we are such proud Military families and its what we love doing.
ReplyDeleteLike you I'm missing my little sister who is the baby of us 3 girls. She does track and I hate not being able to see her at her meets or like her art...she's a really talented artist and I miss her drawing me things.
But also like you I fretted about missing my first and only niece being born and being able to meet her. I didn't meet my niece till she was already a year and a half old :/ It sucks but pictures will be everything ;)
You will totally rock the cleanse and you will so find your purpose when God connects you to it. Sometimes looking for your purpose won't come but when its handed to you, you'll just know.
xoxo
Hugs my friend! It's so hard to be away from family. It's certainly ok to vent every once in a while, we're here to listen :) And you already do inspire people my dear! I love reading what you have to say and you have such a sweet soul!
ReplyDeleteI think a good downer post to get everything out is good every once in a while. I'm sorry you're in a rut, that is never a good feeling. I think you'll get out of it soon though. Lot's of hugs until then!
ReplyDeleteI love juicing!! I do i periodically, your body and craving change, its very cool. You can do it girly! You will feel FANTASTIC!
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What a lovely picture. I think it is good to vent, be honest and sometimes you do have to have more serious or sad posts. You are being you, awesome Sue, and that's all we want! :o)
ReplyDeleteYou're going to be the coolest aunt around, I just know it!
I love you Sue, dont be sad!
ReplyDeleteLove, Shell
A downer post about things such as this is totally acceptable in my book. You are a military spouse trying to find yourself within your husband's career path.. and you are away from your family. It is only natural to feel this way. I hope that you have a fabulous day though and remember that you have such a huge impact on all of us blogger friends.
ReplyDeleteWow, being part of such a big family and being away from all of them must be really hard. :(
ReplyDeleteI'll be interested to see how your juice fast goes, and if you feel any healthier afterwards. I've heard of people doing this before, but never tried it myself, though I am curious.
Don't worry about posting a "downer" post. I think everyone feels this way sometimes.
This post is so not a downer! It was almost as if you were writing straight from my heart (for the most part). I felt comfort in knowing that I am not the only one that feels the same about so many things! I started my blog with the intention of "finding myself" and getting out of a rut - only to find that I can't seem to keep that together either. I am not giving up - not at all. Thank you for your words today! Exactly what my heart needed! <3
ReplyDeleteI'm very interested on this 30 day juice fast!! Wow, what is that going to entail? Sounds really healthy and cleansing...
ReplyDeletesorry to hear about you missing your family and sister. You INSPIRE me, anyway and I'm sure everyone who visits your amazing blog :)
ahh your family is awesome! i'll be sure to give rachel & joe big hugs for you next time i see them!!!
ReplyDeletexo, b.
you already inspire me!! :) I think what you are feeling is totally normal and acceptable! whatever you feel at anytime is valid! My cousin is a life coach. He is SO full of inspiration and positivity. let me know if you are interest and i can give you his email. He's currently on the east coast. I wish i could afford a life coach lol. I too, am feeling the same you are, sort of stuck in a rut..like asking myself, is my life, can my life get better than this (because im kinda tired of the same routine)..not to say that i am not thankful, because i am! But ya know what i mean? Plus i could go on about being away from my siblings! xo
ReplyDeleteI just came upon your blog and read your most recent one and had to read this post, as well. Your blog is your blog and it's yours to share what's in your thoughts. SO, thank you for being honest. It's good to "keep it real" once in a while. ;) It gives us perspective and makes others think. Good luck with your juice fast with your husband; it's awesome you're doing it together! Keep your head up. xx Heidi
ReplyDeletePS. I see that you're a military wife? My husband is in the Navy so cheers to being a military wife! :)